05 March 2008

would an idiot do that?

"Whenever I’m about to do something, I think, “Would an idiot do that?”, and if they would, I do not do that thing..."

- Dwight Schrute

Wisdom from Dwight Schrute should always be taken with a grain of salt (seeing that he is a fictional character on The Office). I, however, could have benefited from employing this line (many times) in my first 27 years of life. Never too late to start.
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04 March 2008

fading

The 8-foot brick wall that surrounds the Coronation Women and Children's Hospital is topped by a series of rusting metal "V"s. These metal shards perched atop the sun-baked bricks serve as a cradle for a tangled, gnarled morass of rusty, foreboding barbed wire.

Rubbish gathers in the crevice that occurs where the street meets the curb. Coke cans, condom wrappers, and yesterday's newspaper battle for space with overgrown weeds and grass that invades the cracks in the asphalt.

People pass incessantly, walking in every direction. Many are students heading to school. As many of them smoke as do not. Lone men pass, clutching bottles that cling to last night's escape. Two young girls walk by, excitedly chattering in the cobbled languages that mark the area. Not one takes much notice of the old hospital.

Somewhere in the bowels of that old hospital a child is waiting nervously. She is watching a nurse prepare a syringe. The needle glistens in the sunlight that crashes in through the cracked glass of what used to be a window in the wall. That anything could be sanitary in this place is a miracle in itself. Dried drops of blood on the floor lead the eye to a wheel-chair laying on its side. Further down the hallway a bin marked with red "x"s and jagged biohazard symbols is overflowing with debris.

Prick! Eish!

Skin is broken and the glistening needle pulls blood slowly from the child's arm. This is a new sensation. It is a sensation she will soon be very used to. The needle slides out and the child grimaces. The event is over, the pain somehow incongruent with the considerable weight of the day.

The blood will be passed into a room, where it will be marked with the child's name and sent to another room where an educated face in a white coat will run a test on the contents of the vial - the same test that she runs on the little tubes of crimson life all day every day.

The results of the test will come back in three weeks and will be printed on a sheet of paper inside of a blue folder that bears the name of the child. The results will shape the entire future of the child.

"Positive" and the child will inherit her mother's taint, the unshakable stigma. The child will learn to endure the accusing stares of people whose righteousness seems to have spared them from the dreaded virus. The child will begin the battle for life. It is a battle she cannot yet win.

"Negative" and the child will walk away free, unbound to the biological catastrophe that is slowly taking her mother to the grave. The child, uninfected, will never know of the fear that once clouded her future.

Back outside the walls of the hospital, two stray dogs scavenge amidst the scraps of what lays discarded in the roadside. A young man, school-aged but obviously not heading to school, stops near the dogs, presses his face up against the brick wall, and begins to urinate. The wall changes color below him. He finishes and stammers off.

Not far away the wall has been tagged, black paint leaping from the washed-out brick. There, halfway between the rubbish and the razor-wire, is a bible verse:

1 TIMOTHY 6:10
FOR THE LOVE OF MONEY IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL

For the people dying just inside those walls, in the crumbling towers filled with too few nurses and even fewer doctors, the "love of money" is the furthest thing from their collective mind. It is the lack of money, the inability to afford live-saving and life-sustaining medications, that is causing the inhabitants of Coronation Women and Children's Hospital, including the child with the fresh pin-prick in her arm, to slowly fade away.

29 February 2008

slip-slidin away

(Note: Each week, the “description” line under the blog headline will change. It will be a line from a song, a quote, or maybe just nonsense from The Office. But, each week, we’ll memorialize the line that is leaving while installing the new one.)

“The nearer your destination, the more you’re slip-slidin’ away.” - Paul Simon

I really like Paul Simon. Ol’ man Garfunkel wasn’t too bad either. And maybe it’s because I have childhood memories of sitting in the backseat of a car on a vacation with the whole family listening to “The Concert in Central Park”, but that album always resonated with me.

The idea that the nearer we get to where we’re going, the further we actually are from it is a strange one, but one that I would subscribe to (if I could figure it out).

I take it to say that life is a journey, not a pursuit of a destination. And the nearer you get to making it a pursuit of a destination (be that a possession or a relationship or a heaven in the sky), the greater loss it is for you, as you are missing all of the roses along the path that deserved to have someone stop and smell them.

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28 February 2008

ben franklin on the nba

(My original intention was to run this quote, one of my favorites, along with Jason Kidd's photo. We'll give it a week and rerun it all if necessary. For now, Shaq in his Suns jersey works just as well...)

"Necessity never made a good bargain."

- Benjamin Franklin, US author, diplomat, inventor, physicist, politician, & printer

26 February 2008

the little things: of toothaches and achilles' heel

Have you ever noticed how it is always the little things that really nail you?

The other day, my lovely Stefani got this look on her face she seldom gets. Something was wrong.

I didn’t get to ask too many probing questions before she alerted me to the problem specifically – a severe toothache. Oh. Ow. You know those bad toothaches, where cool air and liquid and breathing are all excruciatingly painful? One of those...

And it struck me just how vulnerable we are. It occurred to me just how every little facet of our being is in fact paramount to the existence of that being in the first place.

Little things...

Consider Achilles, among the greatest heroes of Greek mythology. He was the most handsome and quickest of all of the Greeks assembled to battle Troy. He was physically invulnerable on all of his body except for his heel. The legends state that he was killed in battle by an arrow – to the heel.

Oh. Ow. The little things...

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25 February 2008

tolstoy on faith and hypocrisy

"Attack me, I do this myself, but attack me rather than the path I follow and which I point out to anyone who asks me where I think it lies. If I know the way home and am walking along it drunkenly, is it any less the right way because I am staggering from side to side!"

- Leo Tolstoy, 19th-century Russian writer

22 February 2008

the post-karmic stream

Well, here it is...the beginning of something else.

Obviously, I have been away for awhile. And I may be away for awhile longer yet...

Nonetheless, this will be the place that I reappear one day in the not too distant future. I loved filling in the margins using the "darkness into light" idea. Still, everything has an end. Recognizing the transition that we are making, and recognizing that there were certain things about blogging that bothered me on a deep (metaphorical?) level, I decided to keep the same site with a new, open purpose: to record and share the things that, for whatever reason, I cannot shake without putting them on paper, no matter what they are, as they flow in this post-karmic stream that we find ourselves.